so im rarely ever on livejournal anymore and i know i say that everytime i update this damn thing lol so kristen got me in big trouble and im trying to stay out of jail... i should be able toget out of it fuck she did i dont know wht the hell happend to her but she didnt go to jail so yea.... i dont know i just think im a real dumb ass... i have so many questions for her sometimes i want my closure well more like some answers but i know i will never get them cuz its all bullshit that comes out of her mouth like she tells me shit i want to hear... oh well
uhm i got to see my sandy day before yesterday and i shoud be able to see her today cuz its the 13th... later tonight i guess we are goin to the bar me and ken and my mom might show up after bingo so thats pretty cool right?
hmmm anyways i dont know much of wat to say except i am doing kind of ok and im hoping something will be ok soon
so i've decided NO MORE FUCKING WATER SIGNS not cancers especially my ex is the cruelest most deceitful person i've ever met and she left me here to suffer in her betrayal
It's so hard to find you I'm standing right behind you The streets are much colder This mean I'm getting older
Why would you? How could I? These questions lead to goodbye But now I got my freedom Don't I?
I parked my car outside your house Hope that someday you'll come home Seems the woman that I love Is someone that I hardly know And after all this time I finally found a way to be alone I'm terrified to think that I may be losing my mind
Shy girl, so humble With eyes that make me stumble Somehow not speaking lets me know everything I go out, You eat in Hot from the situation You're naked in daylight Wrap yourself up and goodnight
I'm burning, I'm hungry Angry cuz she don't love me You got me completely In my own game you beat me
I parked my car outside your house Hope that someday you'll come home Seems the woman that I love Is someone that I hardly know And after all this time I finally found a way to be alone I'm terrified I think that I may be losing my mind
I will be back again No this is not the end I've fallen hard this time but I not giving in I want the world to know that I won't let you forget The tears that you shed I'll make it impossible to let go
I parked my car outside your house Hope that someday you'll come home Seems the woman that I love Is someone that I hardly know And after all this time I finally found a way to be alone I'm terrified to think that I may be losing my mind
I parked my car outside your house Hope that someday you'll come home Seems the woman that I love Is someone that I hardly know And after all this time I finally found a place to be alone I'm terrified to think that I may be losing my mind
ok so me and ma went to pride i didnt think i was gonna get to go but we went and let me tell you it was really sad..... ok dont get me wrong a good thing did happen i got to see uncle jim i was hoping i'd run into him cuz i knew he lived down there and guess what? i did yay for me we hung out at his house for a while to.... i didnt stay at pride very long actually maybe an hour or less cuz i was fucking depressed when i saw them people being married and shit.... ugh i was sad and i am still sad so i hadda get away from it me and jim talked fer a while and im gonna mail him a bday card cuz nobody else will poor uncle jim aww.... he's so cute...
i am sad.... you know i've been trying not to be guess what? its not fucking working... but you know what? nobody gives a fuck
ps some old fat butchy dyke was checkin ma out and shit hahahahahah thats funny... (dont worry mary i think she likes you better)
so i decided i was going to look up some people on myspace well only a couple but anyways i couldnt find my friend randy so i looked up joe and omg i found him... you know who joe shepherd was like my bestest flamey friend in the whole world i sent him a message and told him to add me back wee hoo hopefully he does i dont thin k that i will see him for a while but the point is i found his ass =)
anyways thats all for now just thought i'd update...
When I first looked into your eyes thats when I knew I had to make you mine I could see that you needed me to somehow You brought me home and I invited you inside When you had to go I didn't want you to leave Because around you I didn't feel so alone When you walked out the door, I watched until you were out of sight I will never forget that first night
[Chorus] I fall for you, oh how I fall for you. When you hold me close and press your lips to mine it still feels like the first time. I love you so much and I melt into you everytime we touch. Sometimes you're not here and when you're gone I wish you never left But when you come back you look into my eyes And oh baby how i fall for you again Oh how I fall for you I fall for you
I have felt alone for years And when I met you I was almost in tears You looked so beautiful yet so sad I wanted to ask you if I could be all you had I know it sounds crazy, but I just needed you You told me you loved me, So scared that I might run away But as soon as those words came out of your mouth I knew I could stay Oh my love
Chorus X1
It's been a year now since you've asked me to be yours The days go by so fast with you It only seems like yesterday that I first saw your beautiful face for the first time I feel so lucky to be the one who wakes up with you every morning The one who holds you close when you need me The one who gets to kiss you goodnight And give you hugs just because And I feel even luckier that it will be me with you for the rest of our lives I just wanted you to know That I'll never stop falling
amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:32:41 PM): lol Kristen lehmann (10/30/2006 2:33:56 PM): amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:34:03 PM): what amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:34:12 PM): im going to start calling you my smiley crab amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:34:13 PM): haha Kristen lehmann (10/30/2006 2:34:23 PM): ur smiley crab? man oh man ur weird LOL amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:34:31 PM): tell me bout it Kristen lehmann (10/30/2006 2:35:09 PM): im a crab.. Kristen lehmann (10/30/2006 2:35:27 PM): why couldnt i be like a bird or a butterfly or hell even a damn mouse Kristen lehmann (10/30/2006 2:35:32 PM): no i get to be a crab amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:35:36 PM): im a ram amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:35:38 PM): lol amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:35:43 PM): a sheep amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:35:44 PM): baa amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:35:44 PM): lol Kristen lehmann (10/30/2006 2:36:23 PM): lol Kristen lehmann (10/30/2006 2:36:30 PM): yea but those are cuter than crabs LOL amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:36:35 PM): not really amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:36:40 PM): crabs are cute amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:36:46 PM): lol like sebastian Kristen lehmann (10/30/2006 2:36:55 PM): well thats a a special crab amanda MEANASS (10/30/2006 2:37:04 PM): your a special crab
yay i have internet again but you know what? i really dont seem to care too much... alot has happened... but um.. anyways im gona update my blog cuz nobody ever reads lj but i figured id put something in here.. alright bye